A few minutes later, my small group leader called me down to the DTS Office. I had a print out of how much I still owed on my tuition in hand when I walked in to see my two school leaders, my small group leader, and two friends from our outreach team sitting at tables out back. I felt like I had just walked into the principals office. I sat down and helped them recount the donations. Eventually my leader told me, "I don't like giving serious talks.. but I asked to talk to you because I was supposed to tell you that because you didn't have enough to pay for you lecture phase, we had to send you home today." I just kind of stared at her.. I was being sent home? I couldn't go back to California, I just couldn't. "But," she continued, nodding toward the couple from my team that was sitting at the table, "..they've decided to cover the remainder of your Lecture Phase, so you can stay." I couldn't fathom this incredible miracle that had just been placed in my hands. MINUTES before I was told to pack my bags, God stepped in through the wonderful hearts of my friends. If I ever had problem understanding salvation before, that was gone now. I had a debt that was far more than I could ever pay, and as I was about to be sent home for it, my debt was suddenly paid. Out of incredible love and grace, My Debt Had Been Paid! Are you guys hearing me here? I told so many of you that even though this financial situation over the last few weeks sucked (to put it mildly) that it was a Win/Win for you all. Either way this ended up, you were either going to witness a True Miracle of God, or you all were going to see me a lot sooner then we all thought.
I would love to tell you all that I had full confidence in God the whole time that He would provide and everything would come in just fine, but I didn't. God asked me one day if I trusted Him, even if He sent me back to California, and I flat out said no. It's a difficult and scary thing to lay your whole life in the hands of a God we can't see. It was a struggle, much harder than I ever thought. There were days I would just sit and cry because I was so afraid of going home.. because I didn't trust Him.. because I wanted to be in control even though I knew I couldn't do this. I wanted to pack my bags on my own because I was too afraid He wouldn't show up. After all the tears and the restless nights, I finally gave up. I turned all my trust over to Him, what other choice did I have? I was still apprehensive because I didn't know how He was going to provide enough to cover this debt and keep me here..
But He Did.
God is so faithful and just when I think I can't fall anymore in love with Him, He comes in and saves the day and I love Him even more then I ever thought possible. I still need to raise about $5000 more for Japan, but I have full confidence in the Lord that it will come in somehow. He sent me here for a reason, I KNOW He isn't going to let me down. I can't wait to see just HOW He does it :)I want to thank everyone of you for all your support, I honestly can't do this without you! And to my amazing Japan Team, if any of you ever see this, you all are the most amazingly giving and beautiful souls I have ever been blessed to know, and I can't wait to go out on this adventure with you♥
So there you all have it, a true miracle of God. He's a pretty awesome Father, right?